So near yet so far..

Gona graduate in 4 months time...finally, finally I'm going to be free from all these problems already.But, I do have a concern...will I be able to get a job?? Will I still be able to lead my somehow happy life like now??I'm not sure...KJ asked me if I just want to work with the diploma that I'll be having or do I have plans to study for a degree. Well, all along, I wanted very much yo be able to go overseas to study for a degree...but its always the money problem...I know Australia is a good place to study, but how about my school fees??I'm not an Ace srudent, so I won't be able to cliche any awrrds. Sometimes I kept thinknig why can't I be like others, to have the support from my family to study what I want.. I konw I'm not stupid academically. I can study and I know I can do well but it's always lack of the luck to study...But what to do...that's life isn't it??What should I do??