Kiss GoodBye 2006~

In just a few more days will be the end of year 2006 and the arrival of 2007. This year really passed fast...and a lot of things had happened. For example, I got new jobs, made new friends, got a boyfriend and more problems...

Financial probs, school probs, friendship probs and r/s probs... I dunno why recently we kept quarrelling. To the point that I'm unable to go work the nxt day coz the quarrel drag for so long. I dun understand where the problems lie, but all I know is that I hate these quarrels. The worst one was the one that I got framed and accused of commiting infidelity. That is so ridiculous....Its the truth that I didnt report that Jo they all are going to play majong and dan is nearby and asked me if i wana go for coffee and i said yes. They are all my friends!!Just becoz dan is a guy so I cun mit him??Hes my close friend!!A person whom I seek advice frm coz of his wide life experiences, he did helped me alot by accessing my probs and tokking to me. If no one tok to me, i think i would have gone crazy by now...Yes, I know I got nicole thay all to tok to, but they got probs too!!and its sometimes equally bad or worse...so we do tok,but its diff,when i tok wif the gals,we pour our probs out to feel beta but when i tok to dan its to ask him for advice...

Ytd, fawn called me cuz we had alwaz wana go blading and she offered to teach me. So when he noes, hes unhappy again....fawn is a gal, okok,she seems lyk a les and shes very nice to me, but shes still my fren rite??so juz becoz shes a les and shes nice to me so i shud keep away from her?? Then in the night i went drinking with sam and nic and after dat went down to momo to drink again. I did drank alot but i didnt do that often, so y flare up on me??i dun understand...i felt so suffocated...my life had nvr been so controlled b4...

im not a person who like to be restricted, i noe there are limits to wat i can do, but in the very least,i should go out with my own frens and cont to have my own life isnt it??when will my probs end??

I Heart You Both!!

Been a long time since the three of us met up. Yup, that's darling von, b and me!! Love them deeply man! Had a great time chatting and pouring out all our probs to one and another, and even got to sing our lungs out!!haha!! They even accompanied me to go "collect debt". (only us noe what it means! *wink) just love them!!

Is my Luck Coming?Please make your way here now!!

Shag, woke up not too long ago, didn't go to work today because last night dragged too long... Enquired about the full time criteria. Hmm...not too bad, pay's not bad, and I can give up one job and still be able to survive. So, now, praying hard to be able to get it!! Oh, Mel text me just now, it's regarding the NYE dance. She said the management made a mistake, I'm in!!! So that means, more money coming this way!!Woo~

Now, what I'm worried is the project. C didn't attend the critique session...she's supposed to be doing the technical drawing using freehand, but, she told J that she's still left with 3 of it undone and she didn't even get to sleep the whole night. So, we just ask her to come to school, but she wanted to email so that we can print it out...-_-" no time!!!omg...I'm beginning to question my own judgement now. Was it a mistake that I had done to help her and let her join our group??

It's just technical drawings, and she's making it seems like she's doing a whole tons of work...hello...I'm the one who did the sketches, the drawings, her last semester draft...if she think her those technical drawings are a lot, how about mine??

On hand, we still have to complete the product report, the A&P report and the VM report. But, she hasn't mention anything about those to us. On friday, we text her asking her what time she'll reach school but she didn't even bother to reply...that's just plain IRRESPONSIBLE. Now, I'm beginning to worry if I'll be dragged dwon by them anot. One is so slack, one is so bo chap...what should I do?? No matter how I tried to suppress my stress, I'll still unwittingly showed it out...but who will understand?? When I tried to confide in anyone, all they said was "Don't stress yourself too much, try to relax..blah,blah..." Well, I know that's the only thing they can say, but I also know that whatever they had just told me, won't be working....I don't blame them for saying that, they meant well too.

I need lotsa lotsa luck in my life right now, to help me overcome all these!!!If there is really Santa, I won't wish for a bag of gold anymore, I'll rather he give me a bag of luck that I can use....

So near yet so far..

Gona graduate in 4 months time...finally, finally I'm going to be free from all these problems already.But, I do have a concern...will I be able to get a job?? Will I still be able to lead my somehow happy life like now??I'm not sure...KJ asked me if I just want to work with the diploma that I'll be having or do I have plans to study for a degree. Well, all along, I wanted very much yo be able to go overseas to study for a degree...but its always the money problem...I know Australia is a good place to study, but how about my school fees??I'm not an Ace srudent, so I won't be able to cliche any awrrds. Sometimes I kept thinknig why can't I be like others, to have the support from my family to study what I want.. I konw I'm not stupid academically. I can study and I know I can do well but it's always lack of the luck to study...But what to do...that's life isn't it??What should I do??

How to be indirectly direct??

Recently, we are supposed to do a portfolio for christine's class. It's either you chose to do a new collection, or you use the group collection which we are doing for our final project now. Well, of course doing a new collection will be the best, since we'll be using this portfolio to go out for interview in the future. Now,J wana use our group project to use as her portfolio...The problem here is, I'm the one who drew everything, all the 10 designs!!So, I don't feel that it's quite fair that she's using it for HER portfolio...but, I duno how to tell her...I don't wana spoil the friendship between us, yet I really don't wana let her use my drawings...what should I do??