Singlehood Vs Couplehood

Singlehood:

** Able to do whatever you wana do. e.g. eat the whole tub of ice-cream by yourself, dun have to share at all =)
** Able to go out with anyone, be it the person is a ger, a guy or an in-between.
** Able to wear the most unstylish tshirt and shorts at home, with your hair undone, no makeup on and with dat dorkiest pair of glasses.
**Able to give ur number to that cute guy u smooch wif at the club without feeling a pang of guilty.
**Unable to wear that couple rings you had adored for the longest time...
**Unable to watch cute Brad Pitt movie when all ur gfs are watching with their man..
**No one to tell you how pretty you are, how sweet you are, and how happy that someone is just by having you....
**No one to give you the warmest hug and sweetest kiss when your are just beginning to feel down...

Couplehood:
It's just the opposite of all the things mentioned above...

Well, there are pros and cons to being single and attached. But, the most important thing is one has to be happy regardless of which category he/she is in. But of coz, saying is often easier than doing...

Drink, Drank, Drunk...

Was actually contemplating if i should go down to the usual hangout on wed, well, as wat kaka said, in the end, i still go...wasnt realli in the party mood, met up wif gab, tok cock a bit wif together wif nizan then jo came le. Went up to MW to drink, hmm...oso duno wat drink wsa dat, sam concocted it, juz taste like aloe vera juice...haha!! So, in the end, went over to momo to find kenny and drink the power one!!haha!!realli power sia, was drinking and playing games wif jo, and before i knew it, i was high liao...but i still continued to drink and drink...till to the point i started crying in front of them...

It was the next day before i knew what i was tokking to them about. They told me, i kept crying, saying no one loves me, asking if im realli such a bad gf, why no one could love me for who i am...juz kept on crying sia...then sam was the one who sent me home...and unfortunately i erm..puke on his bed haha!!so in the end he had to wash the bedsheet, wash the floor and practically stay up the whole nite to look after me, cuz when i woke up, i saw him awake forcing himself to watch tv...oops...hes the onli person who realli took care of me the whole nite when im drunk..dis made me thoink of the other tym when i was drunk and he came to fetched me home..i noe i was drunk, i drank too much, so im already trying my best to balance on the bike, but in the end, he still quarrelled with me...there sure to be reason as to why a person out of the blue drank so much de...why cun he understand leh?

After they told me what i said on that wed, i realized how sad i had been the whole while...nizan tok to me about it, he said if a person had been thinknig too much about something,when the person started drinking, it will be very fast b4 he/she becum very emo lyk how i was on that wed...he knew my probs and did help me in it...but in the end, everything still being decided by me rite?

I dun wana be drunk coz of sadness again, i realli wana be happy i wan to have myself back, and not think of how and wat should i do to prevent making the other party angry, or how and what i should say or decide so that we can go out normally...im so so tired le, my life had already been so upside down, now my day become my night and my night become my day...im neglacting my sch stuffs more and more, now to the point of simply bo chap and i noe its bad, its very bad. I realli wana complete my studies smoothly, i dun wana drag it anymore. I wan myself now...

Officially Jobless and Confused, Fucked up With My Life

My title say it all....now only left with my MW job...hiaz....i still got lotsa unpaid bills, and my cough is getting from bad to worse...previously used to cough more at night, but now, im lyk practically coughing every single minute!

And to top it all, lovelife of mine is not well once again...what a way to start a new year....All these probs are weighing down on me, and I really felt so breathless everytime...and my life has become so abnormal...i drank alot, club alot and slp alot...but I still feel very lerthagic. I wana have my normal life back, though come to think of it, it wasn't realli that normal oso, but in the very least, more normal than now la...now its lyk, i only slp at 6am and woke up at 4pm...then i dun realli eat, cuz my whole body is lyk intoxicated with liquior, plus wif my cough, i wana puke sia...

And my love life??Haiz...Im so tired already...Somehow,we are too much like a couple, but a quiet one. We dun mixed ard with each other's frens, we dun enjoy any hobbies together, and we dun really tok lyk pals...I cun take it la....i need someone who can cheer me up wif stupid jokes, even if the joke is made on me, i need someone who laugh off at MY stupid and lame jokes and not go :"Huh? oh, ok.." I need someone who can mix well wif my pals, rnjoy the times wif them, play along with them and not alwaz put on a super stern face and i'll kept having pals coming to me asking y is my bf so angry...I need someone to share his knowledge with me maybe to tell me things frm goldfish do slp to Hilther is a gay....

I dun wan a bf to alwaz quarrel petty stuffs wif me, to be so fucking jealous coz im wif so and so, to trt me better after i flare up, to alwaz ask me to decide where to go and what to do just becoz hes the one driving....I noe encouragements are a bonus to anyone, but when its someone like me, when my probs are beyond solving, when i already noe the consequences and the limited means that i have to solve the probs, encouragements just dun work anymore, they juz made me feel more fucked up...however, if you cheer me up with stupid moves, stupid jokes or bring me to somewhere dumb, i'll feel really beta...

I'm already 24, i wan a guy to be with lyk the rest of my life if possible. I dun wana find those on short terms. And if im looking for my life partner, then i'll of coz find one who will make me happy whenever im wif him...hiaz...its just so fucking irritating...