It's the last part of the journey of acheiving my diploma, but I felt like giving it all up now. I felt so difficult to breathe, so difficult to find back the passion, the concentration! There are just so many so many problems.
By December I have to find the 1.3k to pay for the graduation show. Then I also have to think of ways to get the money for the school fees. Furthermore, now that we have to change our materials, re-search for new more 'classy ' materials, means, I'll have to get more money...Where in the world can I get all these money??? It's here money, there also money...omg...can someone give me money????
It's like now I realized that this course is not really what I wanted, what I actually wanted is to work in the publishing line, to be a journalist, or work in the advertising group...I shouldn't have given up the chance of studying in a JC. At least I'll be able to get into Uni easier...then can also get what I want...Upon realizing this, I really don't have much mood in doing this course anymore...I felt so suffocated!!!
Now I'm so angry with myself, angry that I didnt realized what I want earlier, angry that I made mistakes after mistakes...till now, at the age of 23, I still achieve nothing...I felt so much like a failure!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
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